Some of God's Greatest Gifts are Unanswered Prayers

I wanted to take a moment today to share my waking thoughts from this morning with everyone.

God works in mysterious ways. During hard times most people pray about literally everything that they may need. And for me, luckily, a lot of those prayers have been answered with blessings. Good things have been happening in my life lately. Such as:

• My dad has been on unemployment for a while now and has been having a hard time finding a job lately. However, he got a job offer in NY (where we will be moving to) which although isn't as high of pay as he would like, will give him some of the benefits he needs for medical and dental. Plus its pretty similar to other work he has done so he would be familiar with the work. I was absolutely ecstatic when he called and told me about it.
• I myself may have a job for when I move up. My mom knows someone whose dad owns a movie theater and they need help there so I don't know how much I will be working or what the pay is like, but at least I will be able to start working right away. I really really really need to save up for a car.
• My writing is taking off again. I am getting more inspiration and especially now that school is winding down (which is a blessing in itself), I have more opportunities to write. I am pretty excited about the turns my writing is taking, and getting more excited about the fact that I am getting into short stories more. They are beginning to grow on me!
• I got the classes I wanted for next semester and am thrilled about how the schedule worked out. I will be taking all my classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays and will have the rest of the week available for me to work and make money. Plus I have awesome classes :)

But even while all of these things are going well and life in general seems to be taking a good direction, it seems pretty obvious to see the times where God doesn't answer you right away or not at all. I recently have had a lot of questions about the type of person I am and basically identifying everything about myself. Also, I have been trying to figure out where that plays into a relationship. What do I want out of one? What role should I be playing in one? How much do I accept about the other person before I realize they're just not meant for me? How much to I change about myself? Which, yes, people tell you that you shouldn't change yourself for other people. But, if someone influences you at all, you will see changes. And if you're with someone who is worthy of looking up to, then change will inevitably happen. But how much is too much?

Long-ish story short, I have been trying to figure out where I stand with this and praying to God to send me some sort of sign or just help make things clearer to me. And honestly, I only hear white noise on this subject. I am left wondering why of all things God would chose this to fall silent. I have been needing to keep in mind that he knows all about the future and what is to come for me, but it makes me wonder what it is and why he won't even give me a hint in this area, even though everything else in my life is playing out.

Which, knowing me... this is just God's way of saying: "Have a little trust in me, good things come to those who wait."

This song kind of sums it up for me. Plus its just fun to sing. Enjoy!